I think she wants to battle me,
reflection, game ends in a draw....
29 April 2007
Existence
Everything is still in progress, there is no “on hold”, just a constructed “on hold” while everything is in progress, constantly. Forever ever, I want to believe. So while everything is in progress we don’t have any time to waste really but the time we set for wasting time. I.e. if your vocabulary contains the expression “wasting time”. I don’t think I’ll go any further today.
By the way,
I fell in love with something, a piece of art.
By the way,
I fell in love with something, a piece of art.
28 April 2007
Sorrow
A walk around city in April with June-weather, in sorrow with happy faces.
Today I hear Bosnian spoken everywhere....
27 April 2007
26 April 2007
Seriously! Seriously! Seriously!
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(a) OH DEAR KATHRYN! (moment)
In less than two weeks I’ll be on a plane, believe it or not. I haven’t had time to even think about how I’m going to survive it, since I really hate flying. I have been busy, reloading to be able to take this decision. The plane is going to take me to the capital of a country that once was mine, but I lost it somewhere through the years, and now I’m going back to make it mine again.
To my help I’ll have, you can say, some kind of guide; he will be my leading star through this journey. I have chosen him with very much care, that’s how I know he’s the right man for this assignment.
Eventually, when I return, I hope I’ll have something yearn for, I don’t have any expectations, but I know, everything is going to be just fine.
To my help I’ll have, you can say, some kind of guide; he will be my leading star through this journey. I have chosen him with very much care, that’s how I know he’s the right man for this assignment.
Eventually, when I return, I hope I’ll have something yearn for, I don’t have any expectations, but I know, everything is going to be just fine.
24 April 2007
They say I should sleep on it but I really don't have time for it
Yep, the day has come, the day in which this all is tearing me apart. Although I feel like no one can defeat me, when I see myself in the mirror I look like a helpless child. So the doomsday has come, am I going to stand up for myself, starting a new paradigm, becoming my grownup-me, or I’m going to draw back myself into my shell, afraid to stick my nose out for what’s out there to fight with.
I know what I want, but do I have the guts to stand up for it?
The doomsday has come, it’s really here now.
Time to go, time to stay, however it’s time to make a choice.
I’m in my shell calculating, what’s it worse, disappointing yourself or disappointing people you love?
Yes, I'm trapped in a prisoner's dilemma.
I know what I want, but do I have the guts to stand up for it?
The doomsday has come, it’s really here now.
Time to go, time to stay, however it’s time to make a choice.
I’m in my shell calculating, what’s it worse, disappointing yourself or disappointing people you love?
Yes, I'm trapped in a prisoner's dilemma.
23 April 2007
A crew from the ballet academy
Last night I went out with “the crew”, my dancing crew. Evelin and Marit, hitting the dance floor. OK. It didn’t take long, maybe two minutes, and there they were, a bunch of annoying men. “Hey girls, are you some kind of dancers or something, from the ballet academy?”
Rule number one: Don’t try to chat with me on the dance floor.
Rule number two: Don’t block my space.
Rule number three: Don’t ever try to touch me while I’m dancing, you primitive.
If you however get a chance to chat with me, do not let the first question be “Where do you come from?”
ARE WE CLEAR?
Rule number one: Don’t try to chat with me on the dance floor.
Rule number two: Don’t block my space.
Rule number three: Don’t ever try to touch me while I’m dancing, you primitive.
If you however get a chance to chat with me, do not let the first question be “Where do you come from?”
ARE WE CLEAR?
21 April 2007
Ederlezi
I only remember a few things from my childhood in Bosnia, one of my strongest memories is this song and this scene. Ederlezi….
Another dimension of the intellectual battle/challenge
The feeling comes again before bedtime, this time completely with viability. Oh, I surely did fell into your arms. Like Kathryn would say, any day now. Just listen.
20 April 2007
Holy Friday
What a great day it has been. I woke up at 7 am, because of the stupid laundry, it never MF dries.
And then I went to see my therapist and we talked about my plans for May, about my parents and their opinion about it ect. How wise I though, he really gave me something this time, but when I told my dad about it, he said; HA! How stupid, he knows nothing, and I couldn’t help laughing.
I met Evelin after the therapy and we went shopping, at first I was in kind of a bad mood, I think it was because it was breezy and cold outside. And I felt a little bit stressed, I don’t really know why. How good, she can handle me still. After an hour I thought, well, am I going to spend anything today, it bothered me that I hadn’t found anything. So I have realized I don’t like shopping. It takes too long running around, and people everywhere, just too much of everything.
Anyway, at the end I found almost everything I needed and we were heading towards the tram when a member of Hare-Krishna stopped us. He gave us some kind of cartoon magazine, that he and his friend had made, inspired by their experience in India. He was preaching about the soul, the constant soul, never changes. Our body and your mind is not us, we are our soul. And this world is not our home.
Evelin was going on about Lacan and the lack we live with since our birth, I was going on about the evolution and altruism. He was kind of cute, this guy, so convinced. He said, when I was 11 years old I was a racist, and now I'm standing here. I asked him how old he was now, and he said 23. Then I said ok, so you were a racist when you were 11, and now you’re 23 standing here talking about the constant soul, what do you think you’ll be doing when you’re 40? I got at least an honest answer, he said, I don’t know.
I went home, and for a further 3 hours, I spent my time talking about plans and visions of life.
I even got a proposal over the MSN, have you ever thought about getting married via MSN?
And then I went to see my therapist and we talked about my plans for May, about my parents and their opinion about it ect. How wise I though, he really gave me something this time, but when I told my dad about it, he said; HA! How stupid, he knows nothing, and I couldn’t help laughing.
I met Evelin after the therapy and we went shopping, at first I was in kind of a bad mood, I think it was because it was breezy and cold outside. And I felt a little bit stressed, I don’t really know why. How good, she can handle me still. After an hour I thought, well, am I going to spend anything today, it bothered me that I hadn’t found anything. So I have realized I don’t like shopping. It takes too long running around, and people everywhere, just too much of everything.
Anyway, at the end I found almost everything I needed and we were heading towards the tram when a member of Hare-Krishna stopped us. He gave us some kind of cartoon magazine, that he and his friend had made, inspired by their experience in India. He was preaching about the soul, the constant soul, never changes. Our body and your mind is not us, we are our soul. And this world is not our home.
Evelin was going on about Lacan and the lack we live with since our birth, I was going on about the evolution and altruism. He was kind of cute, this guy, so convinced. He said, when I was 11 years old I was a racist, and now I'm standing here. I asked him how old he was now, and he said 23. Then I said ok, so you were a racist when you were 11, and now you’re 23 standing here talking about the constant soul, what do you think you’ll be doing when you’re 40? I got at least an honest answer, he said, I don’t know.
I went home, and for a further 3 hours, I spent my time talking about plans and visions of life.
I even got a proposal over the MSN, have you ever thought about getting married via MSN?
19 April 2007
The intellectual battle between lovers
Is it really necessary? Okay, sure it is very necessary but, is it really necessary having this battle constantly? The battle should transform into something else but battle, a battle doesn’t give you a chance to relax at any point. Maybe to an intellectual challenge, challenges are okay I think.
The superior I’m always coming back to, someday I’ll regret even using that word, but okay. The superior, damn it, it’s what we need, what I need. But. What makes the superior being the superior is not him/her being aware he/she is a superior but the fact that the superior sees these intellectual battles as intellectual challenges instead.
So, what does that make me? Your superior? No damn it, I’m not aware of it, so maybe. Now please, would you stop being aware of it too, and challenge me instead!
The superior I’m always coming back to, someday I’ll regret even using that word, but okay. The superior, damn it, it’s what we need, what I need. But. What makes the superior being the superior is not him/her being aware he/she is a superior but the fact that the superior sees these intellectual battles as intellectual challenges instead.
So, what does that make me? Your superior? No damn it, I’m not aware of it, so maybe. Now please, would you stop being aware of it too, and challenge me instead!
18 April 2007
Oasis of unknowing
This is what I have learned today:
The reason that Sigmund Freud and his theories have had great success is because, well, as we all know, SEX IS SELLING, alright.
Lacan explains what love is; Love is when you’re trying to give something you don’t have to someone who doesn’t want it.
By the way.
Our professor is trying to resemble this “Lacan-style” when he is holding lectures. And I get really carried away by him, you’ll see here why...
The reason that Sigmund Freud and his theories have had great success is because, well, as we all know, SEX IS SELLING, alright.
Lacan explains what love is; Love is when you’re trying to give something you don’t have to someone who doesn’t want it.
By the way.
Our professor is trying to resemble this “Lacan-style” when he is holding lectures. And I get really carried away by him, you’ll see here why...
Sense of happiness
I came home from work just a couple of minutes ago, I worked at the pub today. There was this game in football, Gothenburg playing against Stockholm. And they lost, but people were still happy, that’s just how things are in Gothenburg. It was really crowded all the time, I didn’t have a chance to think about anything but serving people their beer and food, and I love it. Now I’m all tired, I barely know my own name. But I’m happy as I could ever be. And here is a song I love. And, I love you all, too.
16 April 2007
The altruistic plan of mine
Everyone is lost in them self, including me. I had a dream last night, in which I woke up, but I really didn’t, I hope I’m awake now writing this. I realised from that dream I had lost myself in myself, and that is what’s making my altruistic plan for human decline. This altruistic plan of mine is my life project and I really don’t have time playing naive games, contribute some kind of “you and I“, or be in familiar terms with who or what so ever.
So this plan is a life project like I said, and it will never end, for me of course it will end when I die. By that time I hope I have someone who can assume responsibility of this plan. Like the evolution there is purpose in this plan but just keeping straight balance, making sure nothing disturbs the way of nature itself. Because, there is always an answer to everything, and it goes; it is in the nature of things.
To the question of how I came up with this idea, the answer lies in the many hours I have spent during my lifetime, observing the people, trying to make sense to their actions, reflecting over the relationships there is, trying to define what is right or wrong, until I discovered there is no such thing as right or wrong, then trying to reforming ideas about it, and so on and on.
Anyway, what I’m trying so say is that, I have no self-interest in doing this but the love for human beings.
So this plan is a life project like I said, and it will never end, for me of course it will end when I die. By that time I hope I have someone who can assume responsibility of this plan. Like the evolution there is purpose in this plan but just keeping straight balance, making sure nothing disturbs the way of nature itself. Because, there is always an answer to everything, and it goes; it is in the nature of things.
To the question of how I came up with this idea, the answer lies in the many hours I have spent during my lifetime, observing the people, trying to make sense to their actions, reflecting over the relationships there is, trying to define what is right or wrong, until I discovered there is no such thing as right or wrong, then trying to reforming ideas about it, and so on and on.
Anyway, what I’m trying so say is that, I have no self-interest in doing this but the love for human beings.
15 April 2007
The thunder in a sunny life
Damn it! The last a few days now, you are just getting smaller.... and pitiful, in my eyes. I hate this happening, every time!!!! I mean…. come on! Don’t let me defeat you so easy. I’m expecting more resistance from you. For my own sake that is because if I continue like this I’ll never find what I’m searching for.
By the way, MAN, you are getting on my nerves, and that’s great you know. AGGHH, I have been waiting for so long, take this motherfucking composure away and release the wrath. I need it to feel alive.
By the way, MAN, you are getting on my nerves, and that’s great you know. AGGHH, I have been waiting for so long, take this motherfucking composure away and release the wrath. I need it to feel alive.
14 April 2007
Divine timing?
Pay attention to doors that are opening and shutting for you right now. Walk through doors that open, and learn from the door that shut.
Your prayers are being answered; there is no doubt about it. However, everything operates according to the Universal Laws of Divine Timing. This means that certain pieces of the puzzle must first fall into place so that other parts can come to fruition. If you try to skip or rush certain pieces or parts, the whole plan will lack a solid foundation. Don’t try to force open any doors that appear closed to you. Instead, ask your angels for guidance to see if the door closed because of negative expectations, or if it’s simply a sign of Divine Timing. Look for other doors that do open, and walk through them with faith and gratitude.
Your prayers are being answered; there is no doubt about it. However, everything operates according to the Universal Laws of Divine Timing. This means that certain pieces of the puzzle must first fall into place so that other parts can come to fruition. If you try to skip or rush certain pieces or parts, the whole plan will lack a solid foundation. Don’t try to force open any doors that appear closed to you. Instead, ask your angels for guidance to see if the door closed because of negative expectations, or if it’s simply a sign of Divine Timing. Look for other doors that do open, and walk through them with faith and gratitude.
Bedtime
It is when you get closer I lose my words. And now, before bedtime, like there is no tomorrow I have the greatest of words to tell you. I miss you, and I have thousands of ideas, for a whole lifetime, and each and every idea includes you being a part of it. And then I want to tell you to relax, like I keep telling you, it’s going to get better. Don’t be afraid to let it happen, I have capability to make you stand up straight in need for that, I can take initiatives myself. I know what my intentions were from the start, when I was calculating things, you were not even aware of me. I watched you for a time before I decided to let you know, you are the one that I want.
12 April 2007
A very amusing day
…..just like this scene in this movie, I can help laughing every time I see it. It's the situation, I just recognize it so well.
By the way, lovely day, I can't help smiling.
11 April 2007
Lovemessage
As indifferent as I can be writing this now, I want make sure you know this.
What you make me to be doesn’t agree with my vision of my capability. You rise me in a way I didn’t even consider possible. I’m not used to play this part. So my dearest dear, know that
when I come around, you’ll be my island to discover.
.............
And a message to the ones I was preaching about Love
(And I thought I was very much aware, I think this is what I meant every time I was going on about the “superior”.)
I even have a dedication to Evelin, lots of chocolatecakelove, enjoy this my dear. HAJDE, HAJDE!
What you make me to be doesn’t agree with my vision of my capability. You rise me in a way I didn’t even consider possible. I’m not used to play this part. So my dearest dear, know that
when I come around, you’ll be my island to discover.
.............
And a message to the ones I was preaching about Love
(And I thought I was very much aware, I think this is what I meant every time I was going on about the “superior”.)
I even have a dedication to Evelin, lots of chocolatecakelove, enjoy this my dear. HAJDE, HAJDE!
It's time to get real
Just got home from a meeting with the organizers of The Science Festival.
I’m going to help out with the Psychological experiments, it sure will be fun. I’m very happy that I'm going to take part of it. I just hope that the schoolchildren won’t think it’s boring, but I doubt it, they will be instructed to lie for example, kids like to lie, right?
I’m caught up in a really strange mood, it is just there, so visible for me, but still, I can’t put a word for it. I’ll just leave it here now, I have a million things to do, better get going if I want to survive this.
I’m going to help out with the Psychological experiments, it sure will be fun. I’m very happy that I'm going to take part of it. I just hope that the schoolchildren won’t think it’s boring, but I doubt it, they will be instructed to lie for example, kids like to lie, right?
I’m caught up in a really strange mood, it is just there, so visible for me, but still, I can’t put a word for it. I’ll just leave it here now, I have a million things to do, better get going if I want to survive this.
10 April 2007
The mean girl says Hi
Which word describes you?
Mean
You r one of those
Indifferent says; WORD!
I love mornings like this, I can walk around doing nothing for a whole hour without panicking about being late. I’ll be spending most of my time today at lectures (probably daydreaming a lot), where I’m trying to listen. Later tonight I’ll be working at the pub, there is some kind of football match and I’ll be probably running my ass off at Amsterdammertje. I don’t mind, I love busy days, helps me get focused.
So long friends, lovers and the unspecified ones, I won’t be here entertaining you today. You’ll have to entertain yourself, peace, love and very much understanding, from your Kathryn.
09 April 2007
Dear friends, lovers, and the unspecified ones
I’m no longer available emotionally, unable to create new things, unable giving myself to you. I’m indifferent in the most surrealistic way, indifferent loves surrealistic. I love being indifferent. 
Dear friends, lovers, and the unspecified ones, I’m taken, unavailable to reach.
The sign I’ve been waiting for, it’s here. It sweeps me off my feet just like the first time, but this time I fly higher than ever. Someday when I’m ready and when my matador is ready for me, maybe I’ll be standing down on earth again, maybe I’ll go back to being loveable again.
Dear friends, lovers, and the unspecified ones, I’m taken, unavailable to reach.
The sign I’ve been waiting for, it’s here. It sweeps me off my feet just like the first time, but this time I fly higher than ever. Someday when I’m ready and when my matador is ready for me, maybe I’ll be standing down on earth again, maybe I’ll go back to being loveable again.
08 April 2007
The opposite sex
YOU MEN AMAZE ME SOMETIMES.
Ok. So, I think it was in the end of November last year I met this guy out one night. We talked and exchanged numbers, ok. We said we were going to take a coffee sometime but that never happened. I think last time he asked me out was in January, I received a message but didn’t answer it. OK!
So now, (cmon on, seriously!) it’s April and this guy seems not have given up. I received a message five minutes ago which goes; “Hey sweety, how are you, it has been a while… Hope we can meet maybe soon? Big hugs from “the guy”.
OK again, SERIOUSLY, what to do.
I know he is not going to read this but if he ever did I like to give him this message;
“You must be joking me, MAN, you have to ask your hippocampus to erase me from your brain system, peace bro!”
I’m sorry for bitching but SERIOUSLY, SERIOUSLY, SERIOUSLY!
Ok. So, I think it was in the end of November last year I met this guy out one night. We talked and exchanged numbers, ok. We said we were going to take a coffee sometime but that never happened. I think last time he asked me out was in January, I received a message but didn’t answer it. OK!
So now, (cmon on, seriously!) it’s April and this guy seems not have given up. I received a message five minutes ago which goes; “Hey sweety, how are you, it has been a while… Hope we can meet maybe soon? Big hugs from “the guy”.
OK again, SERIOUSLY, what to do.
I know he is not going to read this but if he ever did I like to give him this message;
“You must be joking me, MAN, you have to ask your hippocampus to erase me from your brain system, peace bro!”
I’m sorry for bitching but SERIOUSLY, SERIOUSLY, SERIOUSLY!
I feel you
Yesterday I talked to a friend about signs. I said I'm waiting for some kind of sign before I get a total turn-off.
And what happend when I took an oracle card today? I got the card; SIGNS
"Pay careful attention to the messages the angels give you now.
You have asked for a sign, and they deliver it. Notice and trust these signs.
You've asked for heaven to help you. Now it's up to you to pay attention to the evidence of their help. This card signifies that your angels are trying to get your attention with signs. They might ask a butterfly or bird to fly near you. Or they might compel you to hear a song several times. They might put an object in your path so that you have to notice it. Drawing this card is also a sign from your angels. They are trying to get through - please notice!
You can ask your angels to give you a sign whenever you have a question or a decision to make. Usually, it's not a good idea to specify what type of sign you'd like. Leave that up to the angels. They are very good at making their presence known."
You've asked for heaven to help you. Now it's up to you to pay attention to the evidence of their help. This card signifies that your angels are trying to get your attention with signs. They might ask a butterfly or bird to fly near you. Or they might compel you to hear a song several times. They might put an object in your path so that you have to notice it. Drawing this card is also a sign from your angels. They are trying to get through - please notice!
You can ask your angels to give you a sign whenever you have a question or a decision to make. Usually, it's not a good idea to specify what type of sign you'd like. Leave that up to the angels. They are very good at making their presence known."
Angels, show yourself.
Where is my Sebastian?
maybe I’ll be like usher
then
you would definitely be one of my confessions
darling
then
you would definitely be one of my confessions
darling
07 April 2007
Healing with angels, Oracle cards.
The card of the day:
CELEBRATION
Good news! Cause for celebration is here, and it is time for you to enjoy the fruits of your labor.
The angels want you to know that this is a light-filled time in your life. You have been working toward making changes, and your intentions have now manifested into form. This is the time for you to fill your heart with a warm feeling of gratitude.
The angels ask you, through this card, to hold strong in this gratitude. You are like a gardener who plants seeds and nurtures them because she has faith that her labours will yield new growth. Keep watering and tending to your seeds, and you will soon see them sprouting through the surface. The angels are your co-gardeners, who help you tend to your crop.
CELEBRATION
Good news! Cause for celebration is here, and it is time for you to enjoy the fruits of your labor.
The angels want you to know that this is a light-filled time in your life. You have been working toward making changes, and your intentions have now manifested into form. This is the time for you to fill your heart with a warm feeling of gratitude.
The angels ask you, through this card, to hold strong in this gratitude. You are like a gardener who plants seeds and nurtures them because she has faith that her labours will yield new growth. Keep watering and tending to your seeds, and you will soon see them sprouting through the surface. The angels are your co-gardeners, who help you tend to your crop.
06 April 2007
The beginning of an end of nothing
What brings me down makes me stronger, it’s almost like I prefer to live in sorrow. I feel so strong knocking you all down. I do, oh I do. Rising up, stronger for each and every time. So you can keep changing your directions after how the wind blows. I’ll just keep up doing what I do.
The past two years has given me a lead, either I’m standing on the top of the top or at the bottom of the bottom, I always have a cleared sight. I can see you and predict your next intentioned and u
nintentional move. I’m moving forward on my own, into something foreign but so familiar. Have I been here before?
I can’t put a word for it. It’s something very diffuse. I think they say “it is in the nature of things”.
In my nature of things.
The past two years has given me a lead, either I’m standing on the top of the top or at the bottom of the bottom, I always have a cleared sight. I can see you and predict your next intentioned and u
nintentional move. I’m moving forward on my own, into something foreign but so familiar. Have I been here before?I can’t put a word for it. It’s something very diffuse. I think they say “it is in the nature of things”.
In my nature of things.
05 April 2007
Welcome to Oskarshamn
I’ve been laughing my ass off for the past 3 hours, if you all think I’m a freak, I sure know where I have got it from, my dear parents. Insane. Believe it or not, it’s good to be home.
And I’ve just received a message from my travelbuddy Biljana, thank God she’s not in Bosnia right now, maybe I’ll get her to join me in May.
So, I have to make up my mind, really, seriously. SERIOUSLY. SERIOUSLY.
The days goes by, I have to make up my mind, damn it. But I have. And I haven’t.
SERIOUSLY.
I'm waiting.
And I’ve just received a message from my travelbuddy Biljana, thank God she’s not in Bosnia right now, maybe I’ll get her to join me in May.
So, I have to make up my mind, really, seriously. SERIOUSLY. SERIOUSLY.
The days goes by, I have to make up my mind, damn it. But I have. And I haven’t.
SERIOUSLY.
I'm waiting.
Bring it on, I'm invincible
Dear lover, I have walls blocking people’s way too, it’s just that I don’t mention it, I don’t warn people. Lover, how you cope with your high walls is the opposite of how I handle it. I wish for us to meet somewhere in between, do you feel me?
So, how did I get here where I am? I don’t like people asking me these type of questions. It’s just too big to answer, sometimes I don’t even know what they’re really asking me, or maybe I know but choose to ignore it completely.
I want to clear instructions in things and I want everything to be defined, before I can give myself into something. Conclusion, I’m afraid of being misunderstood.
I don’t really care much for myself or maybe that’s what the spectators tell me? I love to daydream, making up scenarios, think deeply about other people’s relationship problems, for me there’s always a solution for everything.
Where in all this do I find reflections about myself? No you see, I don’t go there.
I let others do it, sometimes I’m thinking, what makes me is the people around me.
And very aware of it, I let them, but I also choose what to take and make my own.
About choices, I have some issues with choosing, or people making me choose, not a very good strategy to make me follow.
From deep down to outermost surface I’m a person within normal distribution, with some extreme values in some categories, according to Costa and McCrae’s “big five”.
So, how did I get here where I am? I don’t like people asking me these type of questions. It’s just too big to answer, sometimes I don’t even know what they’re really asking me, or maybe I know but choose to ignore it completely.
I want to clear instructions in things and I want everything to be defined, before I can give myself into something. Conclusion, I’m afraid of being misunderstood.
I don’t really care much for myself or maybe that’s what the spectators tell me? I love to daydream, making up scenarios, think deeply about other people’s relationship problems, for me there’s always a solution for everything.
Where in all this do I find reflections about myself? No you see, I don’t go there.
I let others do it, sometimes I’m thinking, what makes me is the people around me.
And very aware of it, I let them, but I also choose what to take and make my own.
About choices, I have some issues with choosing, or people making me choose, not a very good strategy to make me follow.
From deep down to outermost surface I’m a person within normal distribution, with some extreme values in some categories, according to Costa and McCrae’s “big five”.
04 April 2007
Singing my hometown song
I’m leaving my dear Gothenburg tomorrow and heading to east-coast Oskarshamn. It’s been almost four moths since last time, I don’t know how I feel about going there. Actually I do, I’m scared. It’s sad but true that the time goes so very, very slow. Most of the time I really don’t know what to do. I get restless and I hate it.
But on the other hand, I miss my family a lot and I miss my dear, dear Matilda. I really look forward to our two-hour-walk down the shore. I have to convince myself it’s going to be just fine, alright.
Breathe in, breathe out, move on.
I just talked to one of my old biaches, she thought I should do this list-thing. So here we go.
INSTRUCTIONS: Write 15 statements, intended to 15 different people; good/bad things you’ve always wanted to tell them. Never tell which one is to whom.
1. You and I could never last forever.
2. When will you get it, I’m not over you, no, there wasn’t anything ever between us, so there is nothing to get over.
3. I know what you did last night!
4. I was so wrong, and you were so right.
5. I’m so scared of loosing you so I can’t even make it to “having you”.
6. If I was a lesbian I would definitely have sex with you.
7. I don’t give a damn about whatever comes out your mouth.
8. God, you so turn me OFF.
9. I had a date with another guy 20 min after I had left you.
10. You were my first.
11. I have never kissed someone who kisses as bad as you.
12. I’m sorry but I’m just too good for you.
13. It takes a lot to bore someone like you do.
14. I’ve blocked you from my msn, that’s why I’m always offline MF.
15. I get butterflies everytime I look at you.
By the way friends, feel free to leave comments in the language you prefer.
And here is the hometown song;
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OpavHBGxyVo
But on the other hand, I miss my family a lot and I miss my dear, dear Matilda. I really look forward to our two-hour-walk down the shore. I have to convince myself it’s going to be just fine, alright.
Breathe in, breathe out, move on.
I just talked to one of my old biaches, she thought I should do this list-thing. So here we go.
INSTRUCTIONS: Write 15 statements, intended to 15 different people; good/bad things you’ve always wanted to tell them. Never tell which one is to whom.
1. You and I could never last forever.
2. When will you get it, I’m not over you, no, there wasn’t anything ever between us, so there is nothing to get over.
3. I know what you did last night!
4. I was so wrong, and you were so right.
5. I’m so scared of loosing you so I can’t even make it to “having you”.
6. If I was a lesbian I would definitely have sex with you.
7. I don’t give a damn about whatever comes out your mouth.
8. God, you so turn me OFF.
9. I had a date with another guy 20 min after I had left you.
10. You were my first.
11. I have never kissed someone who kisses as bad as you.
12. I’m sorry but I’m just too good for you.
13. It takes a lot to bore someone like you do.
14. I’ve blocked you from my msn, that’s why I’m always offline MF.
15. I get butterflies everytime I look at you.
By the way friends, feel free to leave comments in the language you prefer.
And here is the hometown song;
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OpavHBGxyVo
Here comes the rookie
So, after three months of thinking about starting to write a blog, I’ve made up my mind.
Here I am, it’s not like I’ve not been here before and given up.
I decided to give it a chance again, but this time my dear friends, its going to be in English. So I can start dreaming about people worldwide reading my nonsense.
At first I thought about writing a blog in secret, like making up a character, I’ve heard of people doing it. But hey, who can have a more interesting character then little me?
I feel like I’m in a very intense period of my life, its all very hectic and chaotic.
So, on this very special day I welcome you all to my blog, This is where I’ll cry my heart out in words. I hope you’ll have a good time.
Here I am, it’s not like I’ve not been here before and given up.
I decided to give it a chance again, but this time my dear friends, its going to be in English. So I can start dreaming about people worldwide reading my nonsense.
At first I thought about writing a blog in secret, like making up a character, I’ve heard of people doing it. But hey, who can have a more interesting character then little me?
I feel like I’m in a very intense period of my life, its all very hectic and chaotic.
So, on this very special day I welcome you all to my blog, This is where I’ll cry my heart out in words. I hope you’ll have a good time.
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