24 April 2007

They say I should sleep on it but I really don't have time for it

Yep, the day has come, the day in which this all is tearing me apart. Although I feel like no one can defeat me, when I see myself in the mirror I look like a helpless child. So the doomsday has come, am I going to stand up for myself, starting a new paradigm, becoming my grownup-me, or I’m going to draw back myself into my shell, afraid to stick my nose out for what’s out there to fight with.
I know what I want, but do I have the guts to stand up for it?
The doomsday has come, it’s really here now.
Time to go, time to stay, however it’s time to make a choice.
I’m in my shell calculating, what’s it worse, disappointing yourself or disappointing people you love?
Yes, I'm trapped in a prisoner's dilemma.

13 comments:

Emre Kızılkaya said...

I can't see the comments section for the previous post, so I write here.

Donya is nice. It's like Turkish bellydancing with Balkan music. Is it Bosnian kind of folklore dancing or something created by Donya?

You can watch a Turkish bellydance video here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DJSEJfr6bBM

kathryn merteuil said...

hm, dont know really what happend with that post.
anyhow, the dance is something created by donya.
and i really like the combination of balkan music and oriental dancing.

Anonymous said...

most of the time you'll need to take care of yourself in order to care for the ones you love in the best possible way. letting yourself down will most likely hurt both yourself and (indirectly) the ones you care about...

Anonymous said...

Helloo my dear..

Anders makes a good point. And also, beeing safe is not the same as beeing helpless and afraid...

If anything, beeing grown up is beeing safe. ..Just look at the retirement commercial, "Are you mature enough to start saving for your pension?" :)

You are everything but weak and helpless! You are more like a force of nature. It's just hard to make the right choises when you have so much power sometimes.

Luvidub

See you in school.. ;)

Anonymous said...

vet du vad jag tycker? jag tycker att du ska kick back & relax och låta det som händer hända.

för - som vi alla vet - de löser sajj de gör de aulltid!

puzz!

Anonymous said...

....Od dva zla ,izabrati manje? nema manjeg, ako se upoce pitas - sta izabrati...

Jer -ako uradis sta Ti zelis,i time povrijedis one koje volis - ni ti nisi sretna..Ako uradis sta oni zele, i time ucinis nesto sto ce tebe unesreciti -sta dobivas i time?

Nista.

A biti - kako evelin rece . the power of nature - je dobra osobina.Ali imati i onu mrvu mudrosti i strpljivosti.I dobro razmisliti ,sta jeste dobro a sta ne.

Biti like power of nature i pri tome raditi samo po svome ili...beign patient i uraditi sta je potrebno.

Lunjo

kathryn merteuil said...

anders
yes its my way of reason about it too, but not everyones elses.

evelin
yes, that was that about safety, i cant argue againts that, but to say, i just know it, but i dont know why, you know, oddvar's intuition-talk.

sophia
gah, det kan jag ju först göra efter mitt val,men det är klart det löser sajj, det gör det aulltid.
puzzel.

lunjo
:)
jeste, i znam to dobro.

Anonymous said...

life's too short to care about what everybody else thinks. do what YOU think is best and see what will happen. nothing else really makes much sense. atleast not to me.

Anonymous said...

It's not me to write to somebody else here, but if I see my name, I really would like to know what has been said, otherwise it feels like slander and I'm really against that. Please write in english if you are talking about non-bosnian friends..:(:(:(:P Thanx..

kathryn merteuil said...

anders
it sure is friend, :)
hope life is treating you good.

evelin
jag måste göra en likadan då, lunjo refererade bara till vad du sa om power of nature, som i att det stämmer som du säger.
kvinnan har svårt att uttrycka sig på eng bara, det va inget illa ment. men det tror jag inte du tog som heller.
kärikärlek, eller hur det nu blir på svenskat. :) :) :)

Anonymous said...

life's treating me the way I deserve I guess. thanks for caring...

Anonymous said...

:D

Anonymous said...

Evelin..I apologise - but I just repeated a pert of your sentence ...

Nothing more. Nothing in a "twisted" meaning.

Sorry once again...I am old enough to not use any words of the other people in a mean meaning...

In the same time, some kind of minds I only express on my native language - bosnian. I hope and I believe if K. belives that she should translate it to you -or explaine it to you - she will do it.

It is acctualy, her blog. Not mine. But i keep my fredom to express myself like I do prefer...With all due respect to all others...

Warm regards....

Lunjo...